Art
*** DISCLAIMER ***
Some of the art you are about to see may be sensitive to certain people, viewer discretion is heavily advised, as this covers topics of mental health and some art contains [drawn] blood
The story behind the art
This is partially to pad out the screen so that people who don't want to see any funky stuff they may be uncomfortable with don't see it by accident because yes, but also partially because the story behind it is interesting and shows the development of not just my art skills but my development of a person in general.
[ok if you're scrolling past this I assume you're ok with seeing blood]
Around the winter of 2021, I was really struggling with my mental health and exam stress, and was going through a really dark time in my life, and, having never taught myself properly how to draw, I started from scratch, becoming self taught [this becomes relevant later], as a way to vent. The drawings that I made were, frankly, bad, and they were... unsavory to say the least.
Over the months, as I got slightly better mentally and at art, I continued to draw in the same style, but starting to focus less on actual people and more on monsters, as I found it was easier to dissect a feeling or part of a personality into a singular thing, as opposed to trying to express the complexity of a human in a single page.
[an attempt at art, early 2020 (it gets better {worse??} i promise]
[{arguably} better art, towards the end of the notebook, early 2022]
Towards the beginning of the summer in 2022, after having completed an entire notebook, having started to recover mentally, I made an Instagram account for my art, that showed my most recent art, [@aidan.still.lives if you're interested]. From late July to early September of that year, I drew a series of "monsters" that were just misunderstood, and lacking something.
An example of this is "A sad little guy" [27.07.22] and "That moment of sudden, heart-wrenching sadness" [17.08.22] that showed "monsters", a representation of myself to some degree from the worse times in my life, having to "beg for some sympathy" to fulfill emotional needs.
Moving forward / where I am now
From left to right: "A sad little guy" and "That moment of sudden, heart-wrenching sadness", drawn on 27.7.22 and 17.8.22 respectively, ballpoint pen on paper
Currently, having joined a new school, surrounded by such a positive community, I feel really supported emotionally and mentally, and I genuinely am feeling so much better than I have, properly, since last year [it's partially why i'm writing this on here yk]. So if you do have any concerns because of my art or my music, don't hesitate to get in touch with me, although I can assure you I am doing incredibly well mentally :)
Since people were getting concerned with me drawing in my old style, and because it is, well, an old style, I've begun to draw in a new, more neutral [less offensive] art style, with pieces such as "The king on the Plastic Chair" [1.9.22] and "are you alright?" [26.9.22] and I'll continue to explore drawing, because its something I find incredibly interesting and something I really want to work on it more
"are you alright?" 26.9.22
"The king on the Plastic Chair" 1.9.22
conclusion
bro idk
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ok cya
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